How Addiction Starts...
When you do your annual physical exam doctors now ask how many drinks do you have in a week?
And a depression screening... weird I thought until this summer. It was filled with so much negativity, multiple betrayals, people who drop the ball then blame me, false accusations, then over the top demanding houseguests... then watching national news.
One day I found myself in a liquor store buying a can of Rose, which happens to be rather good, but I rarely drink, then I am outside on a Friday evening drinking half a can of Rose.
I go to the mall and eat half a bag of BBQ chips, then more stuff keeps on snowballing-- like the cab driver who wanted to give me a lecture of being prepared.
I wanted to reach for the can of Rose, then I found that I used that for my frose and drank the other half when someone came on my deck to ask me something so absurd, I wanted to know if Ashton Kutcher's series Punk'd got a reboot.
Then, I looked at the mini bottle of Jack Daniels and said "Hey this where I draw the line!"
I talked to a friend for 2 hours, who just listened and listened, then I went to therapist to see if I was really losing it and she said NO!
The next day I realized this is how addiction starts, it starts with one incident, then with another incident and taking things so personal that you don't know how to cope. I am one who likes to solves problems myself so I don't tell anyone, mistake number one, tell someone!
I so grateful that my friend was there to listen for those 2 hours and he asked me "Why didn't you call me sooner?" He said when you don't talk to anyone and isolate yourself, then you run the risk of falling into a depression, which I did and the therapist said the same thing!
People who are type A personalities who loads of people place tons of expectations on and you have to deliver, are prone to falling into substance or addiction issues.
Thank goodness I caught myself for real, and I remembered the 4 Agreements, "Don't Take Anything Personal."
Meditation for me is wonderful, therapy is not for the severe mentally ill but it is for people who need reality checks, is this me ? or them?
Having a friends that you are willing to just listen you unconditionally, men are great for that!
Also, scaling back, Fashion Month is coming up, do I need to go to 150 shows in 2 weeks?
In terms of events Do I really need to plan the next Circ Du Solei for 30000? Maybe a nice elegant spa party for 10 and take it from there.
People often underestimate the power of small, but tons of people are now promoting small healthy batches of cooking, make-up, even in fashion many quality designers are forgoing buy now pay later, so they put out a well made collection that is sustainable, hence smaller collections.
So as we move into the last quarter of the year don't load yourself up with trying to do everything, and take on everyone's delusions or else you would end up with a serious addiction problem.
De stress and de toxify your life and you would be fine...
Cheers!
And a depression screening... weird I thought until this summer. It was filled with so much negativity, multiple betrayals, people who drop the ball then blame me, false accusations, then over the top demanding houseguests... then watching national news.
One day I found myself in a liquor store buying a can of Rose, which happens to be rather good, but I rarely drink, then I am outside on a Friday evening drinking half a can of Rose.
I go to the mall and eat half a bag of BBQ chips, then more stuff keeps on snowballing-- like the cab driver who wanted to give me a lecture of being prepared.
I wanted to reach for the can of Rose, then I found that I used that for my frose and drank the other half when someone came on my deck to ask me something so absurd, I wanted to know if Ashton Kutcher's series Punk'd got a reboot.
Then, I looked at the mini bottle of Jack Daniels and said "Hey this where I draw the line!"
I talked to a friend for 2 hours, who just listened and listened, then I went to therapist to see if I was really losing it and she said NO!
The next day I realized this is how addiction starts, it starts with one incident, then with another incident and taking things so personal that you don't know how to cope. I am one who likes to solves problems myself so I don't tell anyone, mistake number one, tell someone!
I so grateful that my friend was there to listen for those 2 hours and he asked me "Why didn't you call me sooner?" He said when you don't talk to anyone and isolate yourself, then you run the risk of falling into a depression, which I did and the therapist said the same thing!
People who are type A personalities who loads of people place tons of expectations on and you have to deliver, are prone to falling into substance or addiction issues.
Thank goodness I caught myself for real, and I remembered the 4 Agreements, "Don't Take Anything Personal."
Meditation for me is wonderful, therapy is not for the severe mentally ill but it is for people who need reality checks, is this me ? or them?
Having a friends that you are willing to just listen you unconditionally, men are great for that!
Also, scaling back, Fashion Month is coming up, do I need to go to 150 shows in 2 weeks?
In terms of events Do I really need to plan the next Circ Du Solei for 30000? Maybe a nice elegant spa party for 10 and take it from there.
People often underestimate the power of small, but tons of people are now promoting small healthy batches of cooking, make-up, even in fashion many quality designers are forgoing buy now pay later, so they put out a well made collection that is sustainable, hence smaller collections.
So as we move into the last quarter of the year don't load yourself up with trying to do everything, and take on everyone's delusions or else you would end up with a serious addiction problem.
De stress and de toxify your life and you would be fine...
Cheers!
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